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from amiskwaciwâskahikan to payhonin, Treaty 6 Territory
free palestine.
free palestine.
💿 project process v9. chaos sounds to soothe me
my quest to heal PTSD as openly as possible has had some recent challenges placed upon my heart. I am revisiting my experimental bard challenge from 2022 when I attempted to make a sound almost every day to cope with the distress of being disabled, unaccommodated and forced to work. I mourn greatly in my music for lost dreams, chased ambitions, burnt out love cries and mourning for sonder.
Project Process
Project Process started as an ambition to heal PTSD publicly, through live streamed writing on Twitch in 2017/2018.
Ultimately, it was determined that this was detrimental to the process.
The prelude to this "project" and "process" is that when I was 42,000 words into a novel I lost the capacity to write due to a sexual assault that involved activating the creative centers of my mind, my story telling ability specifically. In combination with my autistic experience of the world, this radically altered my capacity to mask, work on long form writing or engage in complicated communication. However, my pursuit of healing has been relentless.
The Patella Tarot became one avenue of creativity to express and transmute trauma into a magical weapon of love. However, with every imperfect work of art, every scream into the darkness, every piece of poetry I am resisting the world which almost robbed of my words and my life. Not just because of the Near Death Experience in my Assault, which is affirming to my spirituality and personal faith, but also in the aftermath of my trauma, wherein I almost gave up my life due to the overwhelming weight of navigating PTSD in a capitalistic and disjointed world.
Ultimately, it was determined that this was detrimental to the process.
The prelude to this "project" and "process" is that when I was 42,000 words into a novel I lost the capacity to write due to a sexual assault that involved activating the creative centers of my mind, my story telling ability specifically. In combination with my autistic experience of the world, this radically altered my capacity to mask, work on long form writing or engage in complicated communication. However, my pursuit of healing has been relentless.
The Patella Tarot became one avenue of creativity to express and transmute trauma into a magical weapon of love. However, with every imperfect work of art, every scream into the darkness, every piece of poetry I am resisting the world which almost robbed of my words and my life. Not just because of the Near Death Experience in my Assault, which is affirming to my spirituality and personal faith, but also in the aftermath of my trauma, wherein I almost gave up my life due to the overwhelming weight of navigating PTSD in a capitalistic and disjointed world.
We are all worthy of healing. We are all worthy of love. We are all divine.
chaos magic: sigil for miracle
~ glitter.
FOLLOW ME, SUPPORT ME, ENCOURAGE ME
Thank you to everyone who has supported me and encouraged me to rise into my fullest and most true self.
Always Remember
You Are An Artist.
You Are An Artist.
My Pronouns:
he/him - as dictated by my dreams & the goddess who supports, oddly affirming
they/them - interchangeable with he/him, broadly inclusive of my multi-faceted self & gender
glit/glitter/glitterself - for people who enjoy neo-pronouns and want to be extraordinary
I am a polygender (meaning, "many genders") nonbinary trans mad disabled autistic witch.
I am the sole authority on my experiences.
he/him - as dictated by my dreams & the goddess who supports, oddly affirming
they/them - interchangeable with he/him, broadly inclusive of my multi-faceted self & gender
glit/glitter/glitterself - for people who enjoy neo-pronouns and want to be extraordinary
I am a polygender (meaning, "many genders") nonbinary trans mad disabled autistic witch.
I am the sole authority on my experiences.